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sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

may ilang beses tayong pumipikit at dumidilat

ang talukap ng ating mga mata’y bumubukas at sumasara

at sa tuwi-tuwina’y nangungusap sa pagdilat o pagkurap

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

na may isang bagay ay wari mong nasaksihan

tila naiiba ang paggalaw ng mga talukap

na siyang nagdidikta ng ating nararamdaman

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

minsan sinasabing ang nararamdaman ay kasiyahan

ngunit may pagkakataong ang ipinahihiwatig ay kalungkutan

mayroon din naman ang ipinararating ay hindi inaasahan

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

ito rin ay isang bagay na siyang hinuhugasan kung marumihan

ngunit minsan ay mahapdi kung may puwing

sa ating pagluha ay maiibsan

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

sa ating pagdilat ay iba’t iba ang mga nasasaksihan

na nagdudulot ng pagpapasya o pagkakaiba ng ating mga talukap

ngunit sa kalaunan ito rin ay nagsasabing pahinga lamang ang katapat

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

napakagandang pagmasdan ang munting bagay na ito

na kung minsan ay mahirap masaksihan sa bawat isang tao

ngunit sa paglipas ng oras ay may iba’t iba ang galaw

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

ang mga talukap na ito’y atin ding inaalagaan

sapagkat ito’y karaniwang nagpapahayag ng ating kagandahan

na siyang nagpapahiwatig ng ating napupusuan

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

may iba’t ibang uri ng galaw nito

o di kaya’y natural lamang ang pagluha

na siyang nagbibigay ng kaginhawaan sa saloobin ng isang katauhan

sa bawat oras na lumilipas,

sa mga talukap din ito natin naitatago ang mga karamdaman

tila mga karanasang hindi malilimutan

na siyang nagbibigay sigla sa ating mga buhay sa kasalukuyan.

what’s aching? …..It could be a tension headache, a back pain, a stomach cramp, or an earache, for whatever that is what I feel at the moment, I hope its something that I can always handle nevertheless, I should be seeing a doctor. Well, why I brought up the topic to talk about, it just came into my mind. The reason maybe, I shouldn’t be talking about this in public instead, I should be discussing these things with people who can share with me the aches they had once or many times in their lives… I had encountered many head banged on a wall this year, I don’t know what it really meant but it made me think about a lot of things that happened in my life. I’m talking about a month ago when it came across my mind but now it’s totally different of how I’ve felt before than how I feel now. Once I told a friend, who happens to be there to listen, telling me ‘everything shall pass’, which I then don’t understand exactly what it means but after a few hours I realized , it’s all true. But it took me some time to accept everything on my own, that made me wonder where to get all the strength to be able to cope with all these pains. To me, these were just never ending physical pains and struggles but how can we avoid such even for a while? It could be then a little numbness but in my mind to where the ache lives and stays, this is when we, humans, would like to pretend like animals to be able to express our fears like the beasts on a wild.

BY THE ARNO

by oscar wilde

        The oleander on the wall      
        Grows crimson in the dawning light,
        Though the grey shadows of the night
        Lie yet on Florence like a pall.

        The dew is bright upon the hill,
        And bright the blossoms overhead,
        But ah! the grasshoppers have fled,
        The little Attic song is still.

         Only the leaves are gently stirred   
         By the soft breathing of the gale,
         And in the almond-scented vale
        The lonely nightingale is heard.   

        The day will make thee silent soon,   
         O nightingale sing on for love!
         While yet upon the shadowy grove 
         Splinter the arrows of the moon.      

         Before across the silent lawn   
         In sea-green vest the morning steals,
         And to love’s frightened eyes reveals
         The long white fingers of the dawn      

         Fast climbing up the eastern sky   
         To grasp and slay the shuddering night,
         All careless of my heart’s delight, 
         Or if the nightingale should die.    
                        

the three flubbers…

Oh, those bouncy little fellas that’s why i called them three flubbers! Buncha kids who fight each day just to get the attention they need…So sweet! So sweet! I really couldn’t ask for more….These three makes me insane whenever i spent my time with them!

But it’s just so cool to play with them although my energy really is just a few which i always complain about, that way i always give up in minutes…heheheh! Soooh, hyper!

@ my desk

……Oktoberfest Nah?!!? dats wat i always hear everytime this month arrives!

Well, for no important reasons, it’s just an ordinary month but i guess its more important for

me to know that we are fast approaching "Chrismas Holidays", a year end to reminisce.

For another very important reason, i think maybe it’s a moment when i feel a little bit nervous

everyday…Why?! Maybe bcoz I’m getting older each day and everything changed, each day is

something to reflect about. Am not quite sure about what exactly i feel or am feeling at the moment

but i think its something that i don’t just ignore bcoz am not used to feel this way as always…

Am not thinking of something chaotic but it does happens, we’ll never know?!?!? Yeah, folks I’m pretty much aware of these things but we just don’t have that power to tell what’s gonna happen or what’s there to happen…Since, I do sometimes feel unease, as much as i wanted to enjoy every moment with

family and friends.

…..Personally, I don’t want to be judged if am doing what is right for myself, I’m quite reflecting on my daily routines which i guess helped me improved my ways. For all the things which i want to do or maybe i want to reach, it is an accomplishment to me if I did it without the hassles of getting sick or feel tremendous fatigue not knowing where to find my strength once again and won’t be able to cheer up bcoz am totally complaining about all the pains and aches i created! Whew! Whew!

…..I know and I understand that I will be dealing with my life like these forever. That’ll never change, but there are so many things I learned to deal with or shall we say I learned to do, so I can change routines

if i get bored with one thing or the other, I may be able to move on with another thing. I feel totally satisfied with that but since not always I am in my toughest shape, I remained still. Pausing for a moment is something that I always wanted to do even if they’d say I’m wasting my time, when I’m not.

…..I don’t want to study anymore. That’s what’s on my mind right now. I don’t want to indulge my mind into something that will punish my brain for all the things which I’m quite sure will always stay there and if given the chance I’d play instead. This is when I’m feeling all the pressures and the buckles of our surroundings. PLAY suddenly comes in my mind, whether it be some sort of a physical activity or a high-tech one i think it will surely give me benefit rather than use my brain and all the energy i have left in my body! But of course, I’m having fun and i feel released in writing. I think its very important to write at least to express how i feel. I have this funny feeling that I don’t want to be judged if ever, suddenly I’m out of air and won’t be able to breathe one single day for no reasons i don’t know, least I want to explain the whole world that I’m happy and I didn’t commit suicide (you know some people think that way) Neither do i feel depressed…

…..In fact our lives had changed a lot, it has been improved little by little without our knowledge so to speak. For many reasons to have considered, a lot has already changed. I’m not very pessimistic about what has been done and what still has not yet finished, all takes time. Bit by bit, it’ll be in progress! For how long, that one thing nobody can answer. We consider shall we say, prevention, caution, preparation, and the rest is process. What am I talking about, I’m serious, Everything, that’s what I’m talking about. Not just my life, somebody’s life or our future.

…..Everyone is so busy doing a lot for their family when I’m not. Well, sometimes I’m not doing anything

but not always. Of course, i feel sensitive about what’s happening inside our home. Just by saying I don’t want to push myself too much, was that enough for an excuse?! That’s when my hobbies comes in, I’m totally preoccupied!

…..Have a great day!

08-Oct-06

23:07:42

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